A Secret to Success as a Working Mom: Turn Burn Out Into Bliss and Embrace Joy

Last weekend my youngest was committed to going to the "Water Steps" a man-made water fall in Pittsburgh by the rivers. (Fun Fact: Three rivers converge in Pittsburgh--The Ohio River, The Monongahela River, and the Allegheny River.)  He kept asking. I knew he was serious when he said, "If you won't take me, I'll ask  daddy!" Given that it was highly unlikely that would happen on an unscheduled day, I relented. So, we went. It wasn’t planned in the way most things in my life are. No calendar block. No checklist. No “productive” purpose attached. And, so in some respects it was uncomfortable. And yet, it seemed necessary. It was the idea of my 8-year-old—offered with the kind of urgency only children possess when something is profoundly important to them.

A consistent crush…


Anyone who has been in a relationship knows that consistent attention and recognition keep the love juices flowing. Nice notes, expressions of kindness and consistent love have kept many a relationship going, when otherwise they would have failed. That kind of affection is so attractive. And baby, it is oh so hard to resist.

Even though I have reported that my love life has been full of inconsistency, I have a confession. I have been holding out on you. I have been involved in a relationship for some time. I am constantly wooed. My ego is stroked. Indeed, these things fuel my desire.

I return to the relationship even when I have told myself that it is no good for me—it is always taking, never giving. After we connect I often feel depleted instead of inspired. My space is penetrated without permission and without apology. I try to resist, but we all know that a girl has needs. And while my spirit is willing, my flesh is so very weak...

Despite my lustful comments, my relationship is not with a man. It is with a website, http://www.bluefly.com. Apparently Bluefly and I have a major crush going on. I’ve spent enough money with them that when I am away too long they reach out to me. They anticipate my needs. They have what I want. And they even convince me that they even have what I need. We’ve been involved about ten years now. My devotion to fashion probably explains why my closet is more put together than my love life.

Still, there’s no point in ending a good thing is there? My crush is fueled by Bluefly’s spontaneity and variety. And their affection is fueled by my money. It’s a match made in cyber heaven!
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Anonymous said…
I can so identify with this!!